Category: Prayer
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Rock of My Disappointment
Choose a name for God, he said*,borne of the struggle, thewrestling. I have contended, fought You until thefingers of my soul bled,scrabbling for gold beginnings and fabledendings. You have leftme wanting, disappointed. A thin, flimsy wordfor the crushing abyss ofsilence. Unmoved, this Rock of my salvation splintersdreams like toy ships on astormy sea. Flint-faced You […]
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Apocalypse
The battle is losthas beenfor a long time nowDid we even understandwhat we were fighting for? Darkness pervadeslike fine dust ofa coal powered trainThere is nothing it hasn’t touchedcurtains, hair, the tea, his lungs A flake of ash on white linentaunts herbut she knows betterOne brush of her thumb wouldbeget a smear, a blotch, a […]
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Part 3: I Hate God | An Ugly Truth
Well it took awhile for me to get to Part 3 of this series. Will there be a Part 4? Man, I hope not. Wow. What a winter. If nothing else, it’s been real. If you’ve been reading my blog you know I’ve been angry with God. Driving-around-in-my-car-from-midnight-to-2:00am-screaming-until-I-lose-my-voice angry. Yup. It’s been real, alright. Just […]
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Afraid to Pray
I’m afraid to pray. Not the talking-to-God-throughout-the-day kind of prayers. I’ve reached a point in my life where talking to Him is almost automatic – so much so that NOT talking to Him would require serious effort. I’m talking about the petitioning prayers. The God-heal-my-friend prayers. The God-fix-this-relationship prayers. The God-show-us-what-to-do prayers. For weeks, we […]
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Did God Really Say?
The following was written about an experience I had a couple of weeks before my brother passed away. It is still relevant now. One misty morning, when even the air seems gray and heavy with tears, I visit my old church. I climb to the top of the hill, and there surrounded by 12 boulders, I […]
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Prayers Like Snowflakes
Do you ever wonder, as you slog through your list of prayers, does this matter? These words – in the form of petitions and praises and pleadings – do they matter? Do you ever feel overwhelmed? Discouraged? I do. So much heartache. So many needs. Needs that outnumber my prayers. Needs that outweigh my weightless, […]
Lightning Bug 